I’d Rather Be Manic

This mess is for the birds, for real. Being depressed and unmotivated gets you nothing in life. I’m over here gaining weight even though I work out. Feeling suicidal daily is fun and reading psychiatric charts makes it even more fun. People have some very creative ways of attempting but they don’t succeed. Therefore, IContinue reading “I’d Rather Be Manic”

Dumb Crap on My Mind

Mad If I hadn’t gone to the flippin psych ward, I would still have my streaks on Duolingo and MyFitnessPal. I kind of don’t even want to keep up with my languages anymore because I’m bitter. I don’t want to do anything today. I went to take a nap at lunch and got mad forContinue reading “Dumb Crap on My Mind”

Tales from the Psych Ward (Part 4): The Final Countdown

The final bit of my stay in the psych ward. Just as much as I am tired of talking about it, I’m sure you guys are tired of reading about it so it’s time to move on. That’s all we really can do in the end. Now what?

Tales from the Psych Ward (Part 3): “Therapy”

I Don’t Know MUCH BUT… I do know that therapy should be a bit more tailored to the person that is receiving it. The last time I was at Southern Maryland, I wasn’t as knowledgeable regarding psychology. I was obtaining my Associate’s at the time but I just think that there is so much moreContinue reading “Tales from the Psych Ward (Part 3): “Therapy””

Tales from the Psych Ward (Part 2): Getting to Know Other Patients

Finally Getting Roomed When they made the decision to keep me, I was kept in a room with a TV watching old movies and Law and Order: SVU. I kept asking when they were going to take me upstairs and one of the techs asked why I wanted to go upstairs so bad (I wasContinue reading “Tales from the Psych Ward (Part 2): Getting to Know Other Patients”

Tales from the Psych Ward (Part One)

Back Again Okay, 12 years ago, I had to go to Southern Maryland Hospital for getting extremely triggered by my father and cutting the tendons in my hand. I talked about it a little in The Story of My Mental Illness. Well, I found myself back at the same hospital although it is now Medstar SouthernContinue reading “Tales from the Psych Ward (Part One)”

The Story of My Mental Illness

Because this is Mental Health Awareness Month, I decided that today is the day that I tell the story of my diagnosis, symptoms, frustrations, treatments, and all that good stuff. If there are any questions that you would like to ask, please feel free to do so. When Did I Notice a Problem? When IContinue reading “The Story of My Mental Illness”

Don’t Use Your Mental Illness as a Crutch

Sometimes it’s best that I don’t look at the traits or qualities of people that have bipolar disorder. I sometimes use it as a crutch or an explanation for some of my irrational actions or lack of motivation. But how do you tell when your actions ARE a direct result of your mental illness? BipolarContinue reading “Don’t Use Your Mental Illness as a Crutch”

How Kpop Changed My Life – Part TWO: Fan Wars

This is Where Kpop Gets STUPID I really hate this subject. I really hate the people that promote it. This is kind of when I hate Kpop in general. Something SO beautiful that should unite everyone gets turned into this mess. And, maybe it’s because I’m older, but I don’t see the point of it.Continue reading “How Kpop Changed My Life – Part TWO: Fan Wars”